Beyond Measure

I have been so blessed, God has really chosen me for reasons
Reasons I can't explain.
I look all around me and I am simply speechless for all I've got, you might not think it's alot.
But when I look into my baby's big blue eyes, and when I touch my child's hand to me it's no surprise
I am blessed, I feel free, when I'm down and feel like all is lost I look at them and He shows me what I've got- the whole world! Take it in and show them everyday, the love I give in every way. I am so blessed

Why must these walls I have so carefully built
Why must they come on down?
When I have stacked them for years
Filled with abuse, disregard, and tears
Why must they come crumbling down?

I don't really want the unfamiliar around
It's a cold, lonely feeling
There's only so much I can take
Then eventually I break
Can't I just handle the things that I know?

Will the feelings of emptiness within me erase
Or does it just fill more?
I try to tell my heart what it should feel
But that just leads to more time spent to kneel
Well, is that enough?

I long for the answers that humbles my heart
Create inside of me more than just a scar
Go ahead and tear all of my walls on down
Please help me break them down
I simply cannot do it alone

Peel back the layers of my description
Show me the blessings of this blended place I see
Reflect upon me what is worth salvaging
And what I need not worry
And prove the unforeseen possibilities